Happy New Year! I’m back.

I thought that the start of 2019 would be the perfect time to write my first blog post for some time. Last year started off so well, I was focused, happy and really excited about getting married. Unfortunately there were some extremely stressful events where I truly struggled and eventually, about a month ago, I went to the doctor who confirmed what I dreaded, he told me I had depression again and that he would prescribe me anti depressants. I have nothing against taking them, they helped me so much before, but I couldn't help feeling like a failure. Why is it that others can go through the same experiences and not get depressed or anxious? Of course I know that it's a chemical imbalance rather than the incidents themselves, I have also realised that stress is my trigger. I'm a stress head by nature but the first time I was on anti depressants I was going through a messy divorce and this year I've had a new job, a family death & a wedding all in the first 5 months of 2018. With that in mind, I have decided to go easier on myself and start this year as I mean to go on. 2019 is going to be all about self care for me. My husband and I are currently on holiday and I always find that during these breaks, it's a great time to reflect. I spent December eating and drinking ridiculous amounts with hardly any down time, I stopped going to the gym and when I wasn't in a bar or restaurant I was at my desk or in bed. The weekend before Christmas when I finally had a moments rest I came down with a horrible cold, my body was not happy with how I'd been treating it. So this year, I don't have the excuse of weddings or hen do's but what I do have is a goal, a two week holiday to celebrate our first wedding anniversary in May. This gives me exactly 20 weeks to accomplish the weight loss I've been wanting for so long! I'm also going to pick up my Law of Attraction planner again, which fell by the wayside in November, to help me focus and also motivate me. I want to pick up my writing again, I'll be documenting my journey (once again) this time I won't be following a diet such as lean in 15, slimming World or Weight Watchers, they just didn't work for me. I'm going to go with good old fashioned healthy eating & exercise and making sure I log everything I eat, which a lot of people credit their success to. I also want to spend more time cooking, I do really enjoy cooking and love trying new recipes and this way I ensure that I'm eating better foods. I want to get back to practising gratitude and keeping a diary, both things help so much with my mental health, but it's these things that I put off when I am feeling low, preferring to either do nothing and laze around or drink to forget both of which make things worse. It's finally nice to feel positive about life again! Long may it continue!

Comments

Is Success The Thing That Scares Us? Or Is It Failure We Really Fear?

Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm. - Winston Churchill If you fear failure, the above quote from Winston Churchill can be seen as comforting, failing at something can be a huge blow to our egos. But what if you aren't scared to fail? What if succeeding is the thing that scares you most? Failure is something that some of us are quite prepared for. Before we've even set out to do something, that voice in your head is already saying "it probably won't work out". We often prepare ourselves for the worst outcome to protect our fragile egos. If we fail, things will stay as they are and whether we are happy with our current situation or not, it is a lot easier to stay in a familiar situation. Of course, we don't want to fail, we'll feel rubbish about it, sometimes it means we can't do the things we had hoped for at the time, but ultimately, nothing has changed, and we can usually fall back into our old routin...

5 Articles On Medium To Help You Accomplish Your Goals

This is my 700th post on Medium 🥳 I think I’ve come a long way since my first post Welcome To My Blog In yesterdays post, I shared 5 Steps To Setting Goals & Some Useful Tools & Tips Here are 5 articles I found on Medium that also provide some useful information around goal setting In the post What Do You Want? from Gustavo Gallina, we are reminded; “Dreams should be pursued. Set objectives and strive toward them.” In 3 Ways To Make Habits Stick Sobaan Saeed, also talks about failure “You’re gonna fail, you’re gonna screw up but if you show up with that positive attitude every day and just keep trying to do better that’s really all you can ask of yourself.” Daria Haller talks about self discipline in 8 Brilliant Ways To Master Your Self Discipline “don’t forget to reward yourself for your accomplishments.” Eve Arnold makes some great points in the article Why Trading Your Life Hack Mindset For Mindful Productivity Means You Wake Up Happier “Mindful prod...

5 Articles on Medium That Helped Me Overcome Self Doubt

If you read yesterday's article , you’ll know that I’m back from holiday and rather than being full of self-assurance, I'm battling with self-doubt. Yesterday morning, I begrudgingly got out of bed, looked through my to-do list and very quickly decided it was going to be another slow day, reminding myself that it was perfectly ok, although I wasn’t entirely convinced. I decide to read some articles on medium, which I find to be much better for my mind than scrolling through Tik Tok (which I did for the first time this week for longer than I care to admit!) I’m so thankful I did. I came across Alex Mather’s article If you work for yourself and have self-doubt read this “emotions of doubt, are based not on reality, but on our thoughts.” Yes! Everything swimming through my head was all about a failure that hadn’t yet happened, after all, how can you fail at getting work as a writer when you haven’t even submitted any work or made any applications?? Calley Overtons artic...

This is still me ❤️

Search This Blog